cringey gamer

Just an update, from the heart. This past week and a half has been one of those times in life - for me - where I can feel it's time to pause, and reflect. A death is a big thing to walk beside, and a life is often a curious discovery of experiences different from our own. How does one measure ones life? I suppose that's different for everyone as well. But yes, I paused and took some time reflecting, because that seemed important to me.

Life is such a glorious thing. Standing akin to death, I became more acutely aware of life. And I'm kind of obsessed with life anyway and nature and birds and bugs......so by acutely more aware, I mean i was looking at trees and wondering what was their lore? How long had some of these old-timers been here? What had they seem of this odd fellow earthling that calls itself man? I found myself literally placing open palm against tree trunks nicely and saying, "hello".  Looking up at them and watching them interact with elements and other earthlings that found shelter or rest in its open arms.....and while I've always love Joyce Kilmer, I suddenly felt "Trees" much deeper. 

I came home the other day and my 80 year old mother and my son told me of adventures they had that day. They sat and told me all the silly things that happened, where they went to eat, people they encountered. My face muscles hurt from the big smile I had as they both animatedly retold their viewpoints. I said to myself, yeah, soak this for a bit. Soak it as long as you need......because time is always fleeting.....a podcast can pause for a bit.....live life, I said to myself. Sometimes you don't feel like talking, you might feel like writing...where you can't quite as easily fumble over what you want to say...clearly and hopefully articulately....

I have recordings I haven't yet released and people lined up to record and everyone of them is simply so awesome. Desmond is awesome. Anuj is awesome. Surround yourself with good people whose AOE (area of affect) casts warm, vibrant energy around you. (That's my cringey gaming reference, but its applicable.)

unsteady

Just an update that this week's episode will probably be a bit late, and it's not due to any of the rad people who've agreed to come on as a guest, but because the mother of my dear friend has just passed, and coming off a being quite ill the previous week, I've been short on time....and the last thing I ever want to do is rush out a production for the sake of just putting something out.....but producer/intern/magician/sound guy/math dude, Desmond might throw up some previously unreleased "shorts"....

I leave you all with a beautiful quote that I would attribute to Mike Rick, who wrote the screenplay for the wonderful film, Finding Forrester, staring Rob Brown, Sean Connery, Anna Paquin, F. Murray Abraham and Busta Rhymes. I mean, the film is GORGEOUS. Gorgeous language. Gorgeous feels. 

In the film, Sean Connery's character, William Forrester (with many believing Mike Rick wrote it modeled after J.D. Salinger who wrote Catcher in the Rye. Forrester writes,

"The rest of those who have gone before us,

cannot steady the unrest of those to follow."

pure gold

I'm so excited to bring you guys not only my talk with Dr. Robert Allan aka Rab Allan of Glasvegas for this week's episode.....but equally exciting is our new dedicated pages with bonus content for each episode for anyone to dive down rabbit holes.

UPDATE: 13:44 GMT YouTube hit me with a bunch of copyright violations for using Glasvegas music, totally my fault...I thought you got 15 seconds as a freebie before it flagged you, but I was wrong. I may take down the video and re-upload without the music.

SECOND UPDATE: My kid has informed me I need to be more mindful of the camera because my head is not straight. I loathe the camera. That said, don't blame Desmond for choppy editing...that's me and that's just inexperience.....I'm winging it.....I didn't ever plan on using video but everyone including my kid said I should - but that makes it harder to hide the edits....like it wouldn't be for a pro....but obviously, this is just an idea I had less than two months ago and here we are - episode 5! For the record, I'm editing out pauses, any random "whoas" from me, odd sounds....since it's a friendly conversation more than some interview with a random person, people can forget they are being recorded and mention personal stuff so I usually take that out....but that's all i'm editing....this whole thing is so DIY.....but look at all these rad people who knew that going in and came on the podcast anyway....pure gold....xxLV